Happy Birthday Niki xx

June 22nd 2008:
Well,today was a bit random,full of up's and downs.
Firstly it was my little sister Niki's birthday,so i woke up at 5am American time so that i could speak to her in English morning! I was so happy to speak to her and hear her so excited but i was so sad that i wasn't there. I was brave on the phone though and didn't cry because i wouldn't wanna ruin her day.I miss her so much though, as i do all my family.Niki is my baby though. She is the one i look after,the one who comes to me for cuddles and she is so loving and i adore her more than life itself. I love both my sisters so much it hurts and so it broke my heart to not be with them on such a special day. I wrote Niki a birthday poem that i thought i would share with you all:

WHEN I THINK OF ALL THE TIMES WE SAT AND LAUGHED OR CRIED,

OR TIMES WE DID THINGS WE SHOULDN'T HAVE,THE RULES WE HAVE DEFIED,

I CAN'T HELP BUT SMILE AND THINK OF YOU AND ALL THE THINGS WE'VE DONE,

FROM WATCHING FILMS ON RAINY DAYS TO PLAYING IN THE SUN,

BUT NO MATTER WHAT WE STICK TOGETHER, IN FACT WE'RE A BIT LIKE GLUE,

WE ATTACH OURSELVES TO ONE ANOTHER AND SEE THE BAD TIMES THROUGH,

BUT WE ALSO SHARE THE HAPPY TIMES,AND OH HOW WE LAUGH,

WE SIT AND QUOTE OUR FAVOURITE FILMS, AND GENERALLY ACT DAFT,

AND YES IT DRIVES ,MUM UP THE WALL AND SOMETIMES MAKES HER SHOUT,

BUT THE FRIENDSHIP AND THE LOVE WE SHARE,NONE OF US WOULD BE WITHOUT,

SO I HOPE LIKE THE DAYS WE SO OFTEN HAVE,THIS ONE IS SPECIAL TOO,

BECAUSE I CANNOT THINK OF A GIRL WHO DESERVES THAT MORE THAN YOU,

AND I HATE THAT I'M NOT WITH YOU AND THE FACT THAT I'M NOT THERE,

BUT IN OUR HEARTS NO MATTER WHAT, OUR LOVE WE WILL ALWAYS SHARE,

PLEASE DO NOT MISS ME,AND PROMISE ME NO TEARS,

BECAUSE I WANT YOU TO BE HAPPY AND CELEBRATE YOUR 15 YEARS,

I DON'T KNOW HOW I REMEMBER,BUT I KNOW THIS MUCH IS TRUE,

I'LL NEVER BE MORE PROUD IN MY LIFE THAN THE DAY I FIRST HELD YOU.

Its not exactly a genius poem or worthy of Wordsworth but it just shows the way me and her are and our nature is pretty creative anyway.She is forever writing me beautiful letters and poems and i love it :D
So for today my blog is DEDICATED TO NICOLA HOPKINSON,HAPPY BIRTHDAY BEAUTIFUL, I LOVE YOU SO MUCH XXXXXXXXXXXXX

After that i decided i needed some me time and i went to go chill out.I had such a great day by the pool.I was soooooo relaxed and i had a new book and i chilled out and i just loved the whole morning.I was off work again so i could just chill out which was so great cos i have been feeling the heat a bit lately at work and found it hotter and hotter and it makes me tired! But i still love it and wouldn't change being here for the world! I went into my own little world by the pool with my music and my book and just relaxed and forgot about everything and everyone.It was such a great morning.I really needed to just calm down because i kind of was really sad and hurting that i was missing my family so much and i needed to just relax and escape and thats exactly what i did!

What a great day :D



June 23rd 2008:

Well today contrasts yesterday quite rapidly,although technically it all started ast night. We went to this club called "House of Blues" and i was sooo excited and i thought it was gonna be such an amazing night but how wrong can a person be.It all went wrong!!!
First we couldn't get on the bus because it was too packed! Then the second bus came but i couldn't get on it cos i had Jens id and her card and everything and so she wouldn't be able to go anywhere without it and i wasn't gonna just leave her on her own, So i didn't get that bus either. So by the time we made it there it was gone 12.pm.Then it cost $12 to get in when we though it was free for cast members but apparently thats only if your 21.Then Mel was completely wasted so we spend the majority of the night trying to find her and stop her making a total twat of herself.Jen was being lured away by some creep who she didn't know was a knobhead and i was trying to find her because all her stuff was still in my purse. I couldn't dance without at least 5 guys grabbing my ass and generally it was shit!!!!!!!! I was home by approx 2pm no later!
On a positive note the actual club and the music were mint and so i intend to go again but with me as a drunk person and no babysitting everyone!The alcohol here is sooooooo weak i was like :O whats this stuff?Flavoured water?
And then today i woke up with another flippin migraine to the point where i couldn't get out of bed,and before you blame alcohol or going out, i was sober as a judge and sadly so as well!! The headache may have been worth it if i had been battered so sadly not!! So i had to call into work which i was not happy about co i hate the thought of leaving them down a person or letting anyone down.Anyway my wrist hurts from typing and updating so i will leave it there for now and pick up tomorrow xxx