I'll be missing you...

June 19th 2008
Hi everyone.
Well today was pretty average.Not much to report.Just went to work, got very hot,endured another storm (it gets better everytime!! not even joking you).Came home and pretty much crashed out because i was sooo tired. In fact i have nothing to write cos i pretty much slept! Sorry this is soo boring! I guess i will write more tomorrow!!Night xxx

June 20th 2008:

Hey.Well today has been a mixture of good and bad, and happy and sad. Work was ok,even though i was so tired and just hot from the sun.I love the weather here, but sometimes working in the marina and pushing out boats and stuff gets alot harder and my body isn't completely used to it yet, but give me time and i will get there eventually.Apart from finding it a bit hard and stressful today nothing much happened at work.After work i stayed to watch the preview of "Camp Rock" with the Jonas Brothers which was pretty fun. I chilled out with my friend Luke and we just sat there like proper little goofballs surrounded by a million and one little kids, singing and getting all cheesy to the sound of "rock". It was pretty good fun :D
After that i went to the "ale house" with some people from work and just chilled out and had a giggle. That was really nice. I love the people i work with.They are sooo much fun and i really get on with them and just enjoy being around them.Two of the women i work with, CB and Heather, they are like my US mummies,they make sure i stay cool by getting me hats and ice and they update me on the gossip and make me :) They are two of the nicest people you could ever hope to meet and i am super glad i work with them! Its a good job they don't read this blog though, I'd be getting called a kiss ass by now :P

The flat drama isn't really improving.One of the girls Angelica, my roomate is considering moving out :( i think the whole thing is just being blown way beyond what it should be and so i am gonna sit and talk to the girls and try and play peacemaker.So far i have kept out of it and jst not gotten involved which i am proud of! But i think i am gonna just see if i can get them to talk or at least get Angelica to agree not to move out. I mean i honestly do not know what i do without that girl around. She is my adopted sister here, she keeps me sane and laughs at the words i use and looks after me and has sleepy conversations with me (that i never remember!!), she is someone i can hug if i feel down. So i am really gonna be sad if she decides to move out. ANGELICA!DO NOT MOVE!!

Ok so thats the pretty ok part of the day.Well,after that i officially did the stupidest thing ever tonight. I watched "Mighty Joe Young" which is the best film ever but it makes me sob every time.And so i watched it and true to tradition i sobbed my heart out at the end, but once the tears started that was it. The floodgates were well and truly open and so now i seem to have leaking eyes that won't stop!!I think it's probably because i haven't really gotten upset since i have been here, so then watching a film and crying at it kind of just was the start of crying about everything, missing my family mostly. I think i just needed a release and it came! I just miss them so so much and i find it so hard being here without them.Don't get me wrong i love it here and i know they are always here for me and they will always be in my heart no matter where i am. But i occasionally just wish they were here to hug me or to kiss me goodnight or to cry with me at stupid films or to laugh with me and the stupid quotes we have!I love my family more than anything in the world and i guess it just hot home tonight how much i miss them and how much i wish they were here to share this with me. I know that i choose this experience and i am optionally this far away but believe me, if i could afford to fly them over here, i would have them with me every step of the way. I am independent and i can go out on my own no problem, it's just that my family and my best friends and i wish more than anything that i could share this with them. I always miss them when i am away, even when i am only 3 hours away in Liverpool it still makes me sad sometimes,and i wouldn't change that for the world because it shows me how much i care and how much they mean to me and it's good to be reminded of the strength of our love every now and then. It makes us appreciate the people we care for more. I think alot of this is also due to the fact that it is my littlest sisters birthday tomorrow,and i won't be there with her to celebrate. I have sent a card and ordered a gift to be sent to our house but it's not the same as being there and seeing her face light up and laughing with her and being able to jump on her to wake her up. But she knows that in my heart i am with her and that i love her more than life itself.So i remind myself of that so i can get through days like these when i find it hard to be away from them.
Anyway...it is now 4.30am here so i think i should probably go to bed now.Although i am tempted to stay awake a little longer because then i will be able to call (not ring!! its call in America) my family!!! I think i need that at the moment although i don't wanna cry on the phone cos i would hate for them to be upset,especially when i am just being stupidly over-emotional over a bloomin oversized gorilla movie!!!
Until next time...peace xxx