For Chris x

August 1st 2008:
So today I called into work sick because I was very hungover from last night’s escapades. However, it was worth it because I didn’t wanna go in with a headache and a ton of alcohol still sitting on my tummy. So I had a chill out morning,and I rang my Grandad because it was his birthday and it was really great to speak to him and see that he is doing ok.I miss him so much and I love him more than I could ever say,so hearing him so happy that I called for his birthday made my day a million times better.
That was until Chris came over in a panic because something really bad had happened and he needed to go home!! But his airline company wouldn’t change his flight and he didn’t have enough money and his mum was stuck at work so she couldn’t sort it and it was all drama. So I said I would lend him the extra money he needed and I just helped to chill him out. The worst part of all though was saying goodbye.
Now I decided that since today was my day to say goodbye so someone as amazing and genuine as this guy, I would dedicate this particular blog to him.
Chris and I met at the Yacht & Beach club about a month or so ago now. He was a new lifeguard training and (he doesn’t know this part but never mind) I was told that we got a hot new lifeguard and so I wanted to go check him out!!So I went over and said hello and sure enough he was a complete fitty. The snag however is that he had a boyfriend. But,it didn’t matter because that was the day I met one of the best people I will ever be blessed to meet. We started hanging out and he became like a brother to me. We would go out in the car and go shopping or for food or just hang out and have fun watching movies. But whatever we did, we had the best time ever. We sing along to songs in his car, he has an amazing voice and so talented its ridiculous and it pisses me off that he never gets told it enough but he should always know that he is such a bloody amazing person and I love him more than he will ever know. I cannot wait for him to come visit in England :D
This guy taught me a lot about myself and the person I wanna be and made me feel like it was ok to be whoever I wanted to be and I will never be able to thank him enough for that.He gave me confidence in myself and convinced me to buy jeans that fit :P He acted straight with me in Walmart and made the cashier believe we were engaged. And he made me realise that there are still people in the world that are pure angels. People who touch your life from the second you meet them and people who can restore faith in the good. He is one of them.And so,I am missing him already and can’t believe he is gone.But I know we will keep in touch and I know that if I ever need him he will always be there,just like I am always there for him if he needs me.

Chris,thank-you for being you.Never change and always believe.I know that sometimes you feel you aren't appreciated but i want you to know that i appreciate everything you do.You are such a special person and i wish you all the happiness you deserve in everything that you do.I hope every single day of your life is even half as special as you are to me.I love you mister x


Faith,trust and pixie dust ***