13th August 2008.
Well, i got back from Disney on Saturday and my family were waiting at the airport.My little sisters had made me a banner saying "WELCOME HOME SAM" which was the first thing i saw,that made me smile so much.Its funny how the littlest things can make you feel the happiest :)
So then we drove home and i slept for most of it.Then on Sunday i went to my Nana's for our traditional Sunday Dinner.Now for those of you that aren't my family you will not know about this tradition.Every Sunday my Nana and Grandad Ross (Mums mum and dad) make a Sunday Dinner buffet for all of my aunties and uncles and cousins and we all go round and eat and catch up.We have meat (usually beef) and yorkshire puddings and roast potatoes and vegetables etc. Its always beautiful and this Sunday it was even better because i had missed it so much and i got to see all my family!
The bad news is, i had the worst jet lag ever so i was ill and a complete grump.I am struggling to keep myself from crying when i talk about Disney and my friends,just because i miss them so much and because i loved my life over there so readjusting is hard. I know it probably sounds so ungrateful of me to be sad when i have just experienced the best 3 months of my life,but coming down from a high that was so huge is alot harder than you would think.Readjusting to life back in some sort of reality is crazy. I feel like i don't appreciate things here anymore as much as i should just because i know there is more and better.
I know that it is really hard for my family to understand,in fact i am sure they think it means i don't love them and don't want to be with them.But it isn't that at all.I just feel completely numb and just low,for no reason and as much as i wanna be happy i just physically find it hard.Getting up in the morning is a struggle right now and i have no idea why.It's so frustrating and it annoys me more than anyone because i am naturally such a full of life and happy person and i honestly do not know what i can do to make this dark cloud go away. The worst thing is i feel like i have no control over it which is hard for me because i am used to having control.
I spoke to Luke about it and he suggested a million and one things.I honestly do not know what i would do without that boy sometimes.I am so glad he is around.I followed one particular piece of his advice (he knows which part) and i am hoping it will work :)
I guess it's just ben hard to readjust to life away from the happiest place in the world!!!
Hoping for better soon!
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