Hello again.
Well I am pleased to report that things are on the up. I feel much better at the moment which is such a relief, I am just taking each day as it comes and reminding myself of all the positives and it appears to be working!!!
I am sitting here typing in my bed, on the laptop and it’s raining outside! It’s not fun rain like in Florida either, it’s just that drizzle that soaks you through! But nevertheless, I am curled up under the covers so I suppose it’s nice in way, knowing I am all warm and safe from the cold rain. Makes a difference from just a week ago when I would have been out there working in it, but it’s a completely different rain altogether. Isn’t it odd how not only do we have different weather but the actual weather itself is different, like the wind or the rain or the heat.
Anyway…I sat a worked on the video for Luke, Jen and Matt and it is just about finished. I am sooo excited because it literally took me hours of patching music and organising photo’s and adding in quotes and stuff to get it perfect so fingers crossed they are going to like it when I e-mail it to them later. Talking of e-mails, I got really excited because I got an e-mail from my Momma CB telling me about life over the pond. She tells me all my Yacht and Beach friends on the marina are doing well and that they are expecting their first hurricane sometime this week!! Exciting but nerve wrecking stuff I should imagine!
I am really please with keeping in touch with people so far, especially since we’ve all been busy getting home and everything but communications seem to be going well. The only person I wish I had gotten to speak to but haven’t yet is Matt. The little mister!!! But I will hopefully get to catch up with him soon.
I am supposed to be going to a festival with my Dad tomorrow which will be good fun!!I missed spending time with him,although we went out the other night with him and sat and talked about Disney and his holiday and played pool and just had a nice time as a family with sisters.It’s sad that I don’t get to see him all that much anymore because of not living with him at home and then being away in Liverpool at university,but I always look forward to his visits.It was hilarious the last time he came and stayed in Liverpool with me,we went out for a few drinks which turned into one of the best nights out ever.Lets just say I get my dancing and drinking capabilities from him!!!!But in all seriousness I am so glad he is my Dad because he is my friend as well and I know that not many people,especially girls are that close to their Daddies.I know plenty of Daddies girls who love their Dad and who’s Dad;s are protective etc but hard;y any who would be able to go out drinking with their Dad or talk to their Dad about guys and stuff.But I am blessed to have no problem with telling my Dad anything,most of the time!!
Tuesday, August 19, 2008
Friday, August 15, 2008
Life for moi!
Friday 15th August 2008
Ok.Well the good news is i am starting to feel better about things.I am feeling happier and today i had a really nice day with my sisters.We watched "Camp Rock" and it reminded me of the time me and Luke sat on the beach and watched it at the premier! That was such a fun night!! I distinctly remember a few very hot guys as well,besides the Jonas Brothers of course :S
Anyway, i spent some of my day showing Niki (my youngest sister) all the parades and shows i had seen in Disney on youtube.com and she really loved them, i knew she would and i wish more than anything that she had been with me to see it but thats gonna deffo be part of my plans for the future,to get her and my other sister,Emily there!!
Today we had a bit of drama as well!The field next to my house was on fire!!! Me and my sisters went to take Jack (the family dog :) ) for a walk and we heard this crackling sound and as we walked further it grew louder,then we turned a corner and BAM there was a field fire right in front of our eyes! Luckily we called 999 and they had already been informed and the fire engine was there asap!
Erm...what else?Ooooo i dyed my hair today!Got it back to my crazy vibrant red again and am sooo happy about it.I waited the whole 3 months of Disney to get it back!Cos part of "disney look" is having a natural hair colour and apparently bright red doesn't come under that heading :P So i am happy to have my fun hair back again!! I missed it!
I went to library and got some books as well because obviously i could not be without one!!I am a serial read-a-holic and i am shocked i haven't mentioned it before! But to be honest when i was reporting from Disney i think books were the last thing i had to write about :P I also had my first proper English chips and peas which i didn't enjoy as much as i would have liked :S but never mind!! I am trying to be healthier anyway so its probably a good job i am put off for a while!
I did some serious e-mailing tonight and just made sure i was keeping in touch with all my lovelies from Disney.I need to make sure they know how much i miss them and that i think about them all the time!! I really do wish that i could see them everyday still, i think i would miss Diseny alot less if i knew they were close by! Life can be a right bum, sometimes!But never mind i guess i know that the people who matter the most will always be in touch and me and Stewart are already going crazy on planning Luke and Jen's visit to England!!!
Anyway, i am gonna go now and try to sleep,still aiming to get in that pattern!!!!
Night night x
Ok.Well the good news is i am starting to feel better about things.I am feeling happier and today i had a really nice day with my sisters.We watched "Camp Rock" and it reminded me of the time me and Luke sat on the beach and watched it at the premier! That was such a fun night!! I distinctly remember a few very hot guys as well,besides the Jonas Brothers of course :S
Anyway, i spent some of my day showing Niki (my youngest sister) all the parades and shows i had seen in Disney on youtube.com and she really loved them, i knew she would and i wish more than anything that she had been with me to see it but thats gonna deffo be part of my plans for the future,to get her and my other sister,Emily there!!
Today we had a bit of drama as well!The field next to my house was on fire!!! Me and my sisters went to take Jack (the family dog :) ) for a walk and we heard this crackling sound and as we walked further it grew louder,then we turned a corner and BAM there was a field fire right in front of our eyes! Luckily we called 999 and they had already been informed and the fire engine was there asap!
Erm...what else?Ooooo i dyed my hair today!Got it back to my crazy vibrant red again and am sooo happy about it.I waited the whole 3 months of Disney to get it back!Cos part of "disney look" is having a natural hair colour and apparently bright red doesn't come under that heading :P So i am happy to have my fun hair back again!! I missed it!
I went to library and got some books as well because obviously i could not be without one!!I am a serial read-a-holic and i am shocked i haven't mentioned it before! But to be honest when i was reporting from Disney i think books were the last thing i had to write about :P I also had my first proper English chips and peas which i didn't enjoy as much as i would have liked :S but never mind!! I am trying to be healthier anyway so its probably a good job i am put off for a while!
I did some serious e-mailing tonight and just made sure i was keeping in touch with all my lovelies from Disney.I need to make sure they know how much i miss them and that i think about them all the time!! I really do wish that i could see them everyday still, i think i would miss Diseny alot less if i knew they were close by! Life can be a right bum, sometimes!But never mind i guess i know that the people who matter the most will always be in touch and me and Stewart are already going crazy on planning Luke and Jen's visit to England!!!
Anyway, i am gonna go now and try to sleep,still aiming to get in that pattern!!!!
Night night x
Wednesday, August 13, 2008
LIFE AFTER DISNEY BEGINS....
13th August 2008.
Well, i got back from Disney on Saturday and my family were waiting at the airport.My little sisters had made me a banner saying "WELCOME HOME SAM" which was the first thing i saw,that made me smile so much.Its funny how the littlest things can make you feel the happiest :)
So then we drove home and i slept for most of it.Then on Sunday i went to my Nana's for our traditional Sunday Dinner.Now for those of you that aren't my family you will not know about this tradition.Every Sunday my Nana and Grandad Ross (Mums mum and dad) make a Sunday Dinner buffet for all of my aunties and uncles and cousins and we all go round and eat and catch up.We have meat (usually beef) and yorkshire puddings and roast potatoes and vegetables etc. Its always beautiful and this Sunday it was even better because i had missed it so much and i got to see all my family!
The bad news is, i had the worst jet lag ever so i was ill and a complete grump.I am struggling to keep myself from crying when i talk about Disney and my friends,just because i miss them so much and because i loved my life over there so readjusting is hard. I know it probably sounds so ungrateful of me to be sad when i have just experienced the best 3 months of my life,but coming down from a high that was so huge is alot harder than you would think.Readjusting to life back in some sort of reality is crazy. I feel like i don't appreciate things here anymore as much as i should just because i know there is more and better.
I know that it is really hard for my family to understand,in fact i am sure they think it means i don't love them and don't want to be with them.But it isn't that at all.I just feel completely numb and just low,for no reason and as much as i wanna be happy i just physically find it hard.Getting up in the morning is a struggle right now and i have no idea why.It's so frustrating and it annoys me more than anyone because i am naturally such a full of life and happy person and i honestly do not know what i can do to make this dark cloud go away. The worst thing is i feel like i have no control over it which is hard for me because i am used to having control.
I spoke to Luke about it and he suggested a million and one things.I honestly do not know what i would do without that boy sometimes.I am so glad he is around.I followed one particular piece of his advice (he knows which part) and i am hoping it will work :)
I guess it's just ben hard to readjust to life away from the happiest place in the world!!!
Hoping for better soon!
Well, i got back from Disney on Saturday and my family were waiting at the airport.My little sisters had made me a banner saying "WELCOME HOME SAM" which was the first thing i saw,that made me smile so much.Its funny how the littlest things can make you feel the happiest :)
So then we drove home and i slept for most of it.Then on Sunday i went to my Nana's for our traditional Sunday Dinner.Now for those of you that aren't my family you will not know about this tradition.Every Sunday my Nana and Grandad Ross (Mums mum and dad) make a Sunday Dinner buffet for all of my aunties and uncles and cousins and we all go round and eat and catch up.We have meat (usually beef) and yorkshire puddings and roast potatoes and vegetables etc. Its always beautiful and this Sunday it was even better because i had missed it so much and i got to see all my family!
The bad news is, i had the worst jet lag ever so i was ill and a complete grump.I am struggling to keep myself from crying when i talk about Disney and my friends,just because i miss them so much and because i loved my life over there so readjusting is hard. I know it probably sounds so ungrateful of me to be sad when i have just experienced the best 3 months of my life,but coming down from a high that was so huge is alot harder than you would think.Readjusting to life back in some sort of reality is crazy. I feel like i don't appreciate things here anymore as much as i should just because i know there is more and better.
I know that it is really hard for my family to understand,in fact i am sure they think it means i don't love them and don't want to be with them.But it isn't that at all.I just feel completely numb and just low,for no reason and as much as i wanna be happy i just physically find it hard.Getting up in the morning is a struggle right now and i have no idea why.It's so frustrating and it annoys me more than anyone because i am naturally such a full of life and happy person and i honestly do not know what i can do to make this dark cloud go away. The worst thing is i feel like i have no control over it which is hard for me because i am used to having control.
I spoke to Luke about it and he suggested a million and one things.I honestly do not know what i would do without that boy sometimes.I am so glad he is around.I followed one particular piece of his advice (he knows which part) and i am hoping it will work :)
I guess it's just ben hard to readjust to life away from the happiest place in the world!!!
Hoping for better soon!
Monday, August 11, 2008
Last Days Of Magic **
August 6th 2008:
Today was my last day working on the marina. It was pretty tough and I managed to get through it fairly well right until the end of the day and then it got to me.I had a day of just laughing with the people I had met there, taking pictures and exchanging e-mail addresses with everyone. I brought everyone pizza and handed out thank-you cards to those people who have meant the most to me while I was there.
Shane,the guy who trained me in lifeguard class and who I have consistently had the giggle with since I have been at yacht and beach.Everything from the lack of sealeasy in my recreation hip pack to differences in the accent and words I use.
Missy,the fishing guide who sat and talked to me about everything from life to bass fishing.She is an extraordinary lady and I honestly hope that I am half as strong in both body and character as she is when I am older.
Jen,the one manager who helped me more than anyone,who had my crying in her office on a bad day and who sent me home and checked up on me every time she could.The manager who made sure I knew her door was open and who always carted about everyone.
Heather,one of my marina mum’s who made me laugh more than anyone.A woman who is both strong and beautiful and she needs to always believe it.I hope she gets the happily ever after she deserves.
CB,my other marina mum.A lady I have nothing but respect and honest love for.She taught me more about Elvis than I knew even existed.She made me laugh when I was down and when I wasn;t!! She helped me out when I needed it and offered help just for the sake of it.She is in a class of her own and I hope with all my heart that I am half the lady she is.
David,my marina dad who gave me a million rides home, a million smiles and all the help I could have ever asked for.The guy who made life that little bit easier and who would do anything for anyone.I hope this man gets nothing but happiness in his future.
James, my american boy who shared laughs and tears with me.Who made me realise that ife isn’t always easy but you can do and be anything you want to as long as you try harfd enough.A guy who opened his heart to me and who stole my heart forever.A boy who is a joy to be around and someone I wish nothing but happiness and love for always.
Josh,my marina brother who gropes me (his words not mine).The guy who made me smile whenever he was around.The one who gave me hugs like nobody else and who let me be anyone I wanted to be,no matter what that was.The guy who restored my faith in the beauty within people.The guy who made me feel like a little princess and who understood me beyond belief.
Thank-You to all of you and everyone else at Yacht and Beach.You made my life in Florida amazing and I will be forever grateful to you.Love you always xxx
Once I had finished work I got changed and headed over to Epcot to Norway for my Princess dinner with Jen and her family.It was amazing and I was sooo overexcited.I got to see Ariel uin her dress and me and Jen acted like big kids for the night!!!It was so perfect and I had such an amazing time,thank you so much to Jren and her partwnts for making me smile even after a day like today!! You are amazing people and I am so thankful for everything.
Then we met up with Luke and headed over to Hollywood Studio’s to ride the Rock n Rollercoaster one more time.We did that and went and watched the Ariel show one last time for me!! It was a magical night and another one I will treasure always.
August 7th 2008:
Today was my graduation and final day of Disney and man was it an amazing one. This morning was a bit rough cos we had to get up early and go to Partner to pick up our pay check which resulted in us getting lost with Jens parents which was quite hilarious and then waiting for about an hour and a half to go and pick up and cash our cheques but after that we headed over to Epcot for our graduation. We got our “ears” and a certificate and I got a picture with graduation Mickey! So after we had done that we met up with Josh and Cody and did some of Epcot for the last time. We had to do everyone’s little favourite things so we got chips from England for me and headed over to Paris for pastry for Luke. We rode on Soaring for Jen (just KIDDing, Jen hates heights and the Kid jokes too :P ) which was sooo funny because that it the ride that Cody works on and so we got fast passed to the front and got the best seats and then Cody ran off to go do the spiel for us and at the end he announced that it was my birthday and made me go bright red which was sooo funny and I was laughing too much. I love that ride so much and when we saw Disney we cheered and screamed and I really just took in that moment,sat on one of my favourite rides looking at one of my favourite places with the best friends a girl could ask for,
Later, we sneaked into this old ride as well and walked round it which was weird but so funny because we all acted like little school kids that were gonna get caught even though we didn’t do anything wrong but still :P
Then we headed over to Magic Kingdom and hung out there for a bit and went on a few rides and took some pictures. Then Josh and Cody decided to tell us that they had not only got us V.I.P seats to watch the Spectromagic parade but also that we were going to be watching Wishes from the rooftops! It was honestly my best night in Disney. I spent it with people I love and care for so much and I got to see everything so perfectly and I have them to thank for it.Guys I love you so much and you will never know how grateful I am for everything.The parade was unbelievable,we sat in a roped off section right at the beginning and all the characters looked at us and interacted with us and we screamed and cheered and acted like big kids the whole time,which is what diseny is all about!!I have to say that I have never ever seen anyone as excited as Luke and Cody when they saw Peter Pan.Although I will admit I went pretty crazy when I saw ariel!! It was such a magical time and I honestly felt the flutter of something not quite ordinary in my veins and my heart.It sounds so odd unless you feel it yourself but I felt like I had pixie dust in my veins,by this I mean I felt like I was being given an extra kind of feeling, that little bit more magic than anyone else and I will hold the belief and happiness of that moment with me forever.
Then we headed onto the rooftop where we took loads of pictures of Magic Kingdom below us.And then we stood together for the very last time to hear and see the most beautiful fireworks in the world,Wishes. I paused for a moment and looked around me and I saw a rooftop of people who I had grown to love,lit up by the light of the fireworks and I will hold that moment in my heart for always. That image of Jen and Luke,Josh and Cody Matt and Adam, all standing there hearing all about the hopes and dreams we had achieved throughout the time we had spend together.I t still brings tears to my eyes now. Me and Jen sobbed like babies but I can honestly say that my tears have never been happier. They were tears of joy for the luck I have had in meeting such amazing people, seeing such amazing things and having my biggest dreams come to life.
August 8th 2008:
Today was a bad bad day.
I got up at silly o’clock with a bit of a hangover to find that my other flatmates, besides Gemma had already left and had also decided to leave all their food in the cupboards, their mess everywhere and generally just messed it up. I was sooo angry and upset cos it meant I spent my last morning cleaning instead of spending time with Luke and Jen which made me wanna cry.
Then I had to say Goodbye to Jen…
I decided to opt for being strong and saying See you later. But it still broke my heart.I was as strong as I could be but the second I thought about not seeing her for that amount of time just filled me up. Let me tell you about Jen. I met Jen in lifeguard class right at the beginning of my program ,she was a little sweetie and helped everyone out, including me because I was confused about why I was finding it so hard to sink.For a few days we hung out and had giggles and just got acquainted and then I quit and thought nothing of it.Then I was in the pool at Vista and she came over and told me she had passed and we got chatting,and before I knew what had happened she had become someone I couldn’t have lived without. She was there for me through everything these past few months, we’ve laughed we’ve cried and we’ve shared stories and drama. We get on like a house on fire and I honestly feel like crying every time I think about spending the next few months without having her to go to when I feel low or when I need a laugh or just to hang out with. Jen is not only beautiful but she is kind and intelligent, has a wicked sense of humour and was always around when I needed her. So I just wanted to take this opportunity to say thank-you to a girl who made Disney that little bit more magic.Love you always x
So after the hardest goodbye I went and got in a taxi with Luke and Stewart and Harry and Jamie and we headed over to the Marriot hotel to hang out with Sabina before we had to go get on our plane. I spent most of that time asleep because I was just exhausted both physically and mentally. Then we got on the shuttle and headed over to the airport where I had to say goodbye to Luke. That killed me. I will take a moment to try to explain why I love this boy so much,I met him one night while I was in the hot tub and he was watching Hockey in the gym with Jen. I said hi and everything and never thought anything of it.Now I look back and that day was probably the luckiest day of my entire trip.I was fortunate enough to meet the boy who became my best friend. We spent a lot of time together after that day,he mocked my accent and we shared bad jokes, we laughed so hard I cried.I spent a magical day with him and his family and we spent hours taking and sharing problems. I have met a million guys in my time (all 19 years of it) and I may not be an expert but I can honestly say that whoever becomes this boys Cinderella is one damn lucky lady. He lets me be a kid and escape to our Neverland where we can be silly and have fun and never worry. He is my Peter Pan.
Once I had said goodbye i started crying and that was it, I was done. Then most of the planeride I slept and watched movies .I drank my first legal drink since being in America and just tried not to think about the fact that I was flying away from the most fantastic time of my life.
When I look back through this blog and see all the up’s and down’s I have had, the number of breathtaking moments and the amount of amazing people I have met, I find it hard to be sad. Now bear with me because that may seem a little strange, but I can see how lucky I am to have experienced all of this. I am taking home memories that I wouldn’t trade for all the money in the world and nobody and nothing can take that away from me, especially not a silly word like Goodbye.
Its been one hell of an adventure. I remember spending hours dreaming of being here and now I can finally say that some of my dreams have become a reality. When you live in a world like the one we do, its sometimes easier to think of all that you are denied, and your faith in magic and belief in the extraordinary begins to fade. But then you find places and people like I have here and it reminds you why you have a reason to smile. Seeing the castle at the end of Main Street in Magic Kingdom will always fill me with an inner glow because its’ not the bricks and mortar that are important, it’s everything they stand for. That castle is the figment of dreams, the symbol of hopes and the proof that magic can still exist. Anytime I ever feel sad or low I know I will always be able to look back at the pictures of me here and not only see that castle in the background but see the size of the smile on my face and that faces of those with me.
Being able to believe is half the battle. And since being here, I have learned that sometimes faith and belief is all people have. I have seen kids who are dying and you would never guess because they are so strong and so excited to be in Disneyworld. I have experienced the most amazing emotions and found friends that will last a lifetime. I think that the majority of the magic I felt here came from those friends that I met here.
So that’s all for now,I will start my “Life after Disney” blog soon but it may be a few days because I need to see family and stuff first.
So for the last time…
FAITH,TRUST AND PIXIE DUST *****
Today was my last day working on the marina. It was pretty tough and I managed to get through it fairly well right until the end of the day and then it got to me.I had a day of just laughing with the people I had met there, taking pictures and exchanging e-mail addresses with everyone. I brought everyone pizza and handed out thank-you cards to those people who have meant the most to me while I was there.
Shane,the guy who trained me in lifeguard class and who I have consistently had the giggle with since I have been at yacht and beach.Everything from the lack of sealeasy in my recreation hip pack to differences in the accent and words I use.
Missy,the fishing guide who sat and talked to me about everything from life to bass fishing.She is an extraordinary lady and I honestly hope that I am half as strong in both body and character as she is when I am older.
Jen,the one manager who helped me more than anyone,who had my crying in her office on a bad day and who sent me home and checked up on me every time she could.The manager who made sure I knew her door was open and who always carted about everyone.
Heather,one of my marina mum’s who made me laugh more than anyone.A woman who is both strong and beautiful and she needs to always believe it.I hope she gets the happily ever after she deserves.
CB,my other marina mum.A lady I have nothing but respect and honest love for.She taught me more about Elvis than I knew even existed.She made me laugh when I was down and when I wasn;t!! She helped me out when I needed it and offered help just for the sake of it.She is in a class of her own and I hope with all my heart that I am half the lady she is.
David,my marina dad who gave me a million rides home, a million smiles and all the help I could have ever asked for.The guy who made life that little bit easier and who would do anything for anyone.I hope this man gets nothing but happiness in his future.
James, my american boy who shared laughs and tears with me.Who made me realise that ife isn’t always easy but you can do and be anything you want to as long as you try harfd enough.A guy who opened his heart to me and who stole my heart forever.A boy who is a joy to be around and someone I wish nothing but happiness and love for always.
Josh,my marina brother who gropes me (his words not mine).The guy who made me smile whenever he was around.The one who gave me hugs like nobody else and who let me be anyone I wanted to be,no matter what that was.The guy who restored my faith in the beauty within people.The guy who made me feel like a little princess and who understood me beyond belief.
Thank-You to all of you and everyone else at Yacht and Beach.You made my life in Florida amazing and I will be forever grateful to you.Love you always xxx
Once I had finished work I got changed and headed over to Epcot to Norway for my Princess dinner with Jen and her family.It was amazing and I was sooo overexcited.I got to see Ariel uin her dress and me and Jen acted like big kids for the night!!!It was so perfect and I had such an amazing time,thank you so much to Jren and her partwnts for making me smile even after a day like today!! You are amazing people and I am so thankful for everything.
Then we met up with Luke and headed over to Hollywood Studio’s to ride the Rock n Rollercoaster one more time.We did that and went and watched the Ariel show one last time for me!! It was a magical night and another one I will treasure always.
August 7th 2008:
Today was my graduation and final day of Disney and man was it an amazing one. This morning was a bit rough cos we had to get up early and go to Partner to pick up our pay check which resulted in us getting lost with Jens parents which was quite hilarious and then waiting for about an hour and a half to go and pick up and cash our cheques but after that we headed over to Epcot for our graduation. We got our “ears” and a certificate and I got a picture with graduation Mickey! So after we had done that we met up with Josh and Cody and did some of Epcot for the last time. We had to do everyone’s little favourite things so we got chips from England for me and headed over to Paris for pastry for Luke. We rode on Soaring for Jen (just KIDDing, Jen hates heights and the Kid jokes too :P ) which was sooo funny because that it the ride that Cody works on and so we got fast passed to the front and got the best seats and then Cody ran off to go do the spiel for us and at the end he announced that it was my birthday and made me go bright red which was sooo funny and I was laughing too much. I love that ride so much and when we saw Disney we cheered and screamed and I really just took in that moment,sat on one of my favourite rides looking at one of my favourite places with the best friends a girl could ask for,
Later, we sneaked into this old ride as well and walked round it which was weird but so funny because we all acted like little school kids that were gonna get caught even though we didn’t do anything wrong but still :P
Then we headed over to Magic Kingdom and hung out there for a bit and went on a few rides and took some pictures. Then Josh and Cody decided to tell us that they had not only got us V.I.P seats to watch the Spectromagic parade but also that we were going to be watching Wishes from the rooftops! It was honestly my best night in Disney. I spent it with people I love and care for so much and I got to see everything so perfectly and I have them to thank for it.Guys I love you so much and you will never know how grateful I am for everything.The parade was unbelievable,we sat in a roped off section right at the beginning and all the characters looked at us and interacted with us and we screamed and cheered and acted like big kids the whole time,which is what diseny is all about!!I have to say that I have never ever seen anyone as excited as Luke and Cody when they saw Peter Pan.Although I will admit I went pretty crazy when I saw ariel!! It was such a magical time and I honestly felt the flutter of something not quite ordinary in my veins and my heart.It sounds so odd unless you feel it yourself but I felt like I had pixie dust in my veins,by this I mean I felt like I was being given an extra kind of feeling, that little bit more magic than anyone else and I will hold the belief and happiness of that moment with me forever.
Then we headed onto the rooftop where we took loads of pictures of Magic Kingdom below us.And then we stood together for the very last time to hear and see the most beautiful fireworks in the world,Wishes. I paused for a moment and looked around me and I saw a rooftop of people who I had grown to love,lit up by the light of the fireworks and I will hold that moment in my heart for always. That image of Jen and Luke,Josh and Cody Matt and Adam, all standing there hearing all about the hopes and dreams we had achieved throughout the time we had spend together.I t still brings tears to my eyes now. Me and Jen sobbed like babies but I can honestly say that my tears have never been happier. They were tears of joy for the luck I have had in meeting such amazing people, seeing such amazing things and having my biggest dreams come to life.
August 8th 2008:
Today was a bad bad day.
I got up at silly o’clock with a bit of a hangover to find that my other flatmates, besides Gemma had already left and had also decided to leave all their food in the cupboards, their mess everywhere and generally just messed it up. I was sooo angry and upset cos it meant I spent my last morning cleaning instead of spending time with Luke and Jen which made me wanna cry.
Then I had to say Goodbye to Jen…
I decided to opt for being strong and saying See you later. But it still broke my heart.I was as strong as I could be but the second I thought about not seeing her for that amount of time just filled me up. Let me tell you about Jen. I met Jen in lifeguard class right at the beginning of my program ,she was a little sweetie and helped everyone out, including me because I was confused about why I was finding it so hard to sink.For a few days we hung out and had giggles and just got acquainted and then I quit and thought nothing of it.Then I was in the pool at Vista and she came over and told me she had passed and we got chatting,and before I knew what had happened she had become someone I couldn’t have lived without. She was there for me through everything these past few months, we’ve laughed we’ve cried and we’ve shared stories and drama. We get on like a house on fire and I honestly feel like crying every time I think about spending the next few months without having her to go to when I feel low or when I need a laugh or just to hang out with. Jen is not only beautiful but she is kind and intelligent, has a wicked sense of humour and was always around when I needed her. So I just wanted to take this opportunity to say thank-you to a girl who made Disney that little bit more magic.Love you always x
So after the hardest goodbye I went and got in a taxi with Luke and Stewart and Harry and Jamie and we headed over to the Marriot hotel to hang out with Sabina before we had to go get on our plane. I spent most of that time asleep because I was just exhausted both physically and mentally. Then we got on the shuttle and headed over to the airport where I had to say goodbye to Luke. That killed me. I will take a moment to try to explain why I love this boy so much,I met him one night while I was in the hot tub and he was watching Hockey in the gym with Jen. I said hi and everything and never thought anything of it.Now I look back and that day was probably the luckiest day of my entire trip.I was fortunate enough to meet the boy who became my best friend. We spent a lot of time together after that day,he mocked my accent and we shared bad jokes, we laughed so hard I cried.I spent a magical day with him and his family and we spent hours taking and sharing problems. I have met a million guys in my time (all 19 years of it) and I may not be an expert but I can honestly say that whoever becomes this boys Cinderella is one damn lucky lady. He lets me be a kid and escape to our Neverland where we can be silly and have fun and never worry. He is my Peter Pan.
Once I had said goodbye i started crying and that was it, I was done. Then most of the planeride I slept and watched movies .I drank my first legal drink since being in America and just tried not to think about the fact that I was flying away from the most fantastic time of my life.
When I look back through this blog and see all the up’s and down’s I have had, the number of breathtaking moments and the amount of amazing people I have met, I find it hard to be sad. Now bear with me because that may seem a little strange, but I can see how lucky I am to have experienced all of this. I am taking home memories that I wouldn’t trade for all the money in the world and nobody and nothing can take that away from me, especially not a silly word like Goodbye.
Its been one hell of an adventure. I remember spending hours dreaming of being here and now I can finally say that some of my dreams have become a reality. When you live in a world like the one we do, its sometimes easier to think of all that you are denied, and your faith in magic and belief in the extraordinary begins to fade. But then you find places and people like I have here and it reminds you why you have a reason to smile. Seeing the castle at the end of Main Street in Magic Kingdom will always fill me with an inner glow because its’ not the bricks and mortar that are important, it’s everything they stand for. That castle is the figment of dreams, the symbol of hopes and the proof that magic can still exist. Anytime I ever feel sad or low I know I will always be able to look back at the pictures of me here and not only see that castle in the background but see the size of the smile on my face and that faces of those with me.
Being able to believe is half the battle. And since being here, I have learned that sometimes faith and belief is all people have. I have seen kids who are dying and you would never guess because they are so strong and so excited to be in Disneyworld. I have experienced the most amazing emotions and found friends that will last a lifetime. I think that the majority of the magic I felt here came from those friends that I met here.
So that’s all for now,I will start my “Life after Disney” blog soon but it may be a few days because I need to see family and stuff first.
So for the last time…
FAITH,TRUST AND PIXIE DUST *****
Monday, August 4, 2008
Fairytales in real life.
August 4th 2008:
Well our departure is fast approaching and i can't believe that i leave so soon.I have done so well at getting through these past few days without getting overemotional but today i was sitting reading my facebook messages and stuff and i stumbled across a blog from one of the bestest boys i have met here,Luke.I read it and by the time i got to the end,i was filling up.
It went like this... (the bits in bold are about me :) )
One week...
5 days...
two months past and for some reason it feels like i only just got settled. but all good things must come to an end (compliments of Nelly Furtado) right? it has been an amazing trip but i'll save all of the sappy memory-feelings for the last note. lets get you up to date first.
so Mom and Dad came for a week of fun last week and it was a great time. i think i saw more of the parks with them then i have in the whole two months that iv been here by myself! it was great though i got to spend a couple nights with them in hotels - and let me tell you when you get a chance to sleep in a real queen sized bed with a real mattress as opposed to the plastic single bed that i have in my apartment - you dont pass that up! it was wonderful! so we spent the first couple days going through some of the main rides and parks and had a great time. we also got the disney dining plan which gives you a quick service meal and a sit down table service meal each day! so we were able to go to some more of disney's amazing restaurants and they were soooo good! but i think the highlight of the trip was when we got to go to Cinderella's castle for breakfast with the princesses! the night before we were talking and i was talking to my friend Sam and i decided that it would be a good idea to invite her along with us. theres something you must know first about Sam - she will put everyone she knows before herself and will take care of you to the 'nth degree no matter what she has to do to do it! she is such a caring and compassionate person it makes my heart smile! so me and mom and dad decided it was time to do something for her so we brought her along with us and we spent the whole day in Magic Kingdom. the breakfast was absolutely stunning! first we got to go into the castle which felt just like a real castle; there were coats of arms everywhere and a suit of armor and then Cinderella was there and we got our picture with her and talked to her for a while. then i got a sword and sam got a fairy wand and we climbed the stone spiral staircase up to the big room where we had breakfast. it was increadable! the ceilings were all vaulted with coats of arms hanging down and out the big stained glass windows you could see out over all of fantasyland! then princess aurora, belle, jasmine and snow white came around to each table and we got pictures with them and talked with them a while. after breakfast we went and rode some rides and watched the dreams come true parade. it was a great time had by all - thanks for coming Mom and Dad!
the day before yesterday we went to see Cirque Du Soleil. IT WAS AMAZING!! the amount of strength and poise and talent that those performers have is absolutely breath taking and the way they do it makes your jaw drop! we spent the rest of the night going through downtown disney and pleasure island for what i believe will be my last time while down here.
Jen, Sam and I had our last full day off from work and so we decided the only place that you can really spend your last day - is in Magic Kingdom. there is something about the place that just makes you smile and looking up at the castle brings a sense of awe and peace to anyone that looks at it. i really believe that there is magic in that place. we went and rode some rides, like my favorite PETER PAN! yes so if you dont already know i finally have a favorite character - peter pan is his name and i met him twice! of course my favorite will always be Cinderella just because she has always been my favorite despite disappointment the time i checked under her dress for glass slippers when i was four. anyway we went and visited Sam's favorite, Ariel, and talked with her about our program and how long were here and how she was etc.. sam was so happy! then we were walking by the castle and it started to hit us that we dont have much time left... we came across Cinderella's wishing well and we each threw in a penny after a long time wishing. then we all kind of stood there for a minute looking up at the castle. thats when our hearts started to ache a little bit.dont get me wrong im very excited to go home! go back to friends and family and get back to the real world.. but since being here i think i really have grown. i have found out things about myself that i couldnt at home. i made friends that i will keep a lifetime from all over the world. but i think perhaps the thing i will miss the most is the magic; being able to walk down mainstreet with my friends and look up at the castle and know that you are in a place where dreams really do come true. where everyone is welcome, everyone belongs, and everyone has a smile on their faces! i can barely describe what it means to me now because living here has made it so much more relevant to me. this place where sick kids come for their last wish, and families broken apart come and are happy together, and every kid - young or old - comes to dream and have those dreams come to life... i will miss seeing the dreams of so many people come to life every day.
and with that happy note i will leave you thinking about your own dreams but i promise to write one last note before i go.
http://www.facebook.com/photo.php?pid=768363&op=1&view=all&subj=78899430424&aid=-1&oid=78899430424&id=511101383 THATS THE LINK TO THE NOTE ON FACEBOOK!
So that was his blog entry.Now see why i love this boy so much?I honestly cannot imagine my life without him and Jen.They are my best friends,my other musketeers,and they take up a big huge place in my heart, and i doubt for one second that will ever change.I think that i came here expecting to meet people but i never expected to meet angels.They literally are angels and i don't know what i would ever do if i hadn't them.There is a saying that goes "the people you meet in the first week are the ones that stay with you forever".In our case that couldn't be more true.I met Jen in lifeguard class and i met Luke through her by the pool one day and from that day things would never be the same for me in Orlando.It is honestly like my own Disney fairytale because i may not have fallen in love with Prince Charming but i found a place that is magical and i found people i love more than i could love any random boy! These guys did much more than found a glass slipper,they found their way into my heart and i cannot honestly begin to explain how much i will miss them.But anyway,like Luke said,i will leave the soppy stuff for the very end!
SO today was another day at the marina.It seemed to go really slow and dragged abit which sucked a little bit but never mind.Then after work i went to Steffies and we watched HERCULES and i headed down to the pool and the hot tub and met up with Giulianna and ALison and we hung out and chatted.I bumped into a guy called Nathan who i met like right at the beginning and spoke to him a bit about how his lifeguarding was going and everything!He is here until January and i am sooo mega jealous!Ooooo i finally got my social security number which pleases me because it means i can work in the US now so hopefully my visa won't take so long to get when i eventually come live here.I spoke to Chris today which was lovely cos i have missed that boy like crazy these past few days.It feels like there is a gap in my day not seeing him and i wish more than anything i could just stay here with all these amazing people but at the same time i cant wait to see my family.Gosh i miss them! But i will be sad to leave such an amazing place.But anywho,like i said i am saving all the philospohical sad and happy mushy bits for the very end!
I am gonna head off to bed now becuse i am getting tired which means i will get all emotional and i dont want to just yet!
NIght night xxx
Well our departure is fast approaching and i can't believe that i leave so soon.I have done so well at getting through these past few days without getting overemotional but today i was sitting reading my facebook messages and stuff and i stumbled across a blog from one of the bestest boys i have met here,Luke.I read it and by the time i got to the end,i was filling up.
It went like this... (the bits in bold are about me :) )
One week...
5 days...
two months past and for some reason it feels like i only just got settled. but all good things must come to an end (compliments of Nelly Furtado) right? it has been an amazing trip but i'll save all of the sappy memory-feelings for the last note. lets get you up to date first.
so Mom and Dad came for a week of fun last week and it was a great time. i think i saw more of the parks with them then i have in the whole two months that iv been here by myself! it was great though i got to spend a couple nights with them in hotels - and let me tell you when you get a chance to sleep in a real queen sized bed with a real mattress as opposed to the plastic single bed that i have in my apartment - you dont pass that up! it was wonderful! so we spent the first couple days going through some of the main rides and parks and had a great time. we also got the disney dining plan which gives you a quick service meal and a sit down table service meal each day! so we were able to go to some more of disney's amazing restaurants and they were soooo good! but i think the highlight of the trip was when we got to go to Cinderella's castle for breakfast with the princesses! the night before we were talking and i was talking to my friend Sam and i decided that it would be a good idea to invite her along with us. theres something you must know first about Sam - she will put everyone she knows before herself and will take care of you to the 'nth degree no matter what she has to do to do it! she is such a caring and compassionate person it makes my heart smile! so me and mom and dad decided it was time to do something for her so we brought her along with us and we spent the whole day in Magic Kingdom. the breakfast was absolutely stunning! first we got to go into the castle which felt just like a real castle; there were coats of arms everywhere and a suit of armor and then Cinderella was there and we got our picture with her and talked to her for a while. then i got a sword and sam got a fairy wand and we climbed the stone spiral staircase up to the big room where we had breakfast. it was increadable! the ceilings were all vaulted with coats of arms hanging down and out the big stained glass windows you could see out over all of fantasyland! then princess aurora, belle, jasmine and snow white came around to each table and we got pictures with them and talked with them a while. after breakfast we went and rode some rides and watched the dreams come true parade. it was a great time had by all - thanks for coming Mom and Dad!
the day before yesterday we went to see Cirque Du Soleil. IT WAS AMAZING!! the amount of strength and poise and talent that those performers have is absolutely breath taking and the way they do it makes your jaw drop! we spent the rest of the night going through downtown disney and pleasure island for what i believe will be my last time while down here.
Jen, Sam and I had our last full day off from work and so we decided the only place that you can really spend your last day - is in Magic Kingdom. there is something about the place that just makes you smile and looking up at the castle brings a sense of awe and peace to anyone that looks at it. i really believe that there is magic in that place. we went and rode some rides, like my favorite PETER PAN! yes so if you dont already know i finally have a favorite character - peter pan is his name and i met him twice! of course my favorite will always be Cinderella just because she has always been my favorite despite disappointment the time i checked under her dress for glass slippers when i was four. anyway we went and visited Sam's favorite, Ariel, and talked with her about our program and how long were here and how she was etc.. sam was so happy! then we were walking by the castle and it started to hit us that we dont have much time left... we came across Cinderella's wishing well and we each threw in a penny after a long time wishing. then we all kind of stood there for a minute looking up at the castle. thats when our hearts started to ache a little bit.dont get me wrong im very excited to go home! go back to friends and family and get back to the real world.. but since being here i think i really have grown. i have found out things about myself that i couldnt at home. i made friends that i will keep a lifetime from all over the world. but i think perhaps the thing i will miss the most is the magic; being able to walk down mainstreet with my friends and look up at the castle and know that you are in a place where dreams really do come true. where everyone is welcome, everyone belongs, and everyone has a smile on their faces! i can barely describe what it means to me now because living here has made it so much more relevant to me. this place where sick kids come for their last wish, and families broken apart come and are happy together, and every kid - young or old - comes to dream and have those dreams come to life... i will miss seeing the dreams of so many people come to life every day.
and with that happy note i will leave you thinking about your own dreams but i promise to write one last note before i go.
http://www.facebook.com/photo.php?pid=768363&op=1&view=all&subj=78899430424&aid=-1&oid=78899430424&id=511101383 THATS THE LINK TO THE NOTE ON FACEBOOK!
So that was his blog entry.Now see why i love this boy so much?I honestly cannot imagine my life without him and Jen.They are my best friends,my other musketeers,and they take up a big huge place in my heart, and i doubt for one second that will ever change.I think that i came here expecting to meet people but i never expected to meet angels.They literally are angels and i don't know what i would ever do if i hadn't them.There is a saying that goes "the people you meet in the first week are the ones that stay with you forever".In our case that couldn't be more true.I met Jen in lifeguard class and i met Luke through her by the pool one day and from that day things would never be the same for me in Orlando.It is honestly like my own Disney fairytale because i may not have fallen in love with Prince Charming but i found a place that is magical and i found people i love more than i could love any random boy! These guys did much more than found a glass slipper,they found their way into my heart and i cannot honestly begin to explain how much i will miss them.But anyway,like Luke said,i will leave the soppy stuff for the very end!
SO today was another day at the marina.It seemed to go really slow and dragged abit which sucked a little bit but never mind.Then after work i went to Steffies and we watched HERCULES and i headed down to the pool and the hot tub and met up with Giulianna and ALison and we hung out and chatted.I bumped into a guy called Nathan who i met like right at the beginning and spoke to him a bit about how his lifeguarding was going and everything!He is here until January and i am sooo mega jealous!Ooooo i finally got my social security number which pleases me because it means i can work in the US now so hopefully my visa won't take so long to get when i eventually come live here.I spoke to Chris today which was lovely cos i have missed that boy like crazy these past few days.It feels like there is a gap in my day not seeing him and i wish more than anything i could just stay here with all these amazing people but at the same time i cant wait to see my family.Gosh i miss them! But i will be sad to leave such an amazing place.But anywho,like i said i am saving all the philospohical sad and happy mushy bits for the very end!
I am gonna head off to bed now becuse i am getting tired which means i will get all emotional and i dont want to just yet!
NIght night xxx
Saturday, August 2, 2008
I'll be missing you.
August 2nd 2008:
I can’t believe it is the beginning of August already.I leave on the 8th! I can’t even begin to explain how sad I am that I am going home.Not because I don’t miss my family and friends,because I miss them more than they will ever know,but because I am in love with Orlando and Disney. I left my family to come live with strangers and now I feel like I am leaving behind my family again,just a different type of family.The people I have met here are unbelievable and not a day goes by that I don’t thank my lucky stars for this opportunity and for being blessed to have met people like the ones I have here. Today I was sad because Chris left last night. Then I got a text from Josh this morning, asking if I wanted a lift to work, which just was lovely that he’d thought of me so that made me smile. And then Luke text me telling me to have a great day which was for no reason and just made me giggle to myself. So literally within minutes of me feeling down, two people had cheered me up. I guess it’s those kind of things I will miss from my time here.
I had a fun day at the marina today. It was Nicole’s (a really nice girl who works with me on weekends) last day at Yacht & Beach because she is transferring to work on Main Street in Magic Kingdom and so me and her had a day of just chatting and being a little bit naughty which was nice because it meant we had extra fun :D I also did my first fishing today!! And I caught a HUGE fish and I was so excited for the rest of today because I did it! I even held it and it was disgusting and it freaked me out a bit but I was proud that yet again I had done something that I hadn’t before I came here!! I think that’s another thing I will miss about being in Disney. Every single day I am here, I learn something or see something or do something that I never have before and I love it because it means every day is an adventure and a learning experience, which to me is priceless because it means I never ever get bored!
I spoke to my Dad today so that I could say Goodbye to him before he goes on holiday with his girlfriend am a bit sad because I have been away for three months and then he is away when he was going to come and pick me up!I was really excited to see him at the airport because he would have been the first person I saw when I got back to England. But I guess not. I’m not too worried though because apparently my Mum and her boyfriend and my little sisters are going to come, so the thought of seeing Emily and Nicola when I get back is more than enough to make me excited to get off the plane. I wish more than anything I could bring them here, that would be perfect!!!
I went to see Cirque Du Solait again last night and it was just as amazing as the first time.I love that show sooo much, I wish they had one in England so I could take my sisters because I know they would love it as much as I did, but never mind, I am determined to bring them here one day whether it kills me. So I will make sure I bring them to see it then! The best part about last night was spending time with Jen and Luke. I love those two to death and I like that we had a night out together before we leave because we’re all working pretty solid for the next week and Jens parents are down and so I just really wanna make sure I spend as much time with them as humanly possible because I am gonna miss them unbelievably when I go home. I wanna make the most of our last couple of days together!
So then…back to today.I got a lift home with Josh and his boyfriend Cody. I think the world of both those boys.They look out for me and they are so kind and caring. They are really genuine guys and they give me lost of cuddles which I love. Josh always dances with me and throws me around at work because he knows how and he makes my day when I work with him, I always look forward to work knowing that Josh is gonna be with me. Cody is such a great guy too. I met him for the first time a while ago when I went to go Mamma Mia and I haven’t stopped thinking he is a little gem ever since! He is such a sweetie and Josh and him always go on about how I should come back and stay with them and stuff. They are like part of my Florida Family and I will miss them more than I can even begin to explain.
Anyway, i should go now and get some sleep because i am back at work on the dock again tomorrow! Sweet dreams x
I can’t believe it is the beginning of August already.I leave on the 8th! I can’t even begin to explain how sad I am that I am going home.Not because I don’t miss my family and friends,because I miss them more than they will ever know,but because I am in love with Orlando and Disney. I left my family to come live with strangers and now I feel like I am leaving behind my family again,just a different type of family.The people I have met here are unbelievable and not a day goes by that I don’t thank my lucky stars for this opportunity and for being blessed to have met people like the ones I have here. Today I was sad because Chris left last night. Then I got a text from Josh this morning, asking if I wanted a lift to work, which just was lovely that he’d thought of me so that made me smile. And then Luke text me telling me to have a great day which was for no reason and just made me giggle to myself. So literally within minutes of me feeling down, two people had cheered me up. I guess it’s those kind of things I will miss from my time here.
I had a fun day at the marina today. It was Nicole’s (a really nice girl who works with me on weekends) last day at Yacht & Beach because she is transferring to work on Main Street in Magic Kingdom and so me and her had a day of just chatting and being a little bit naughty which was nice because it meant we had extra fun :D I also did my first fishing today!! And I caught a HUGE fish and I was so excited for the rest of today because I did it! I even held it and it was disgusting and it freaked me out a bit but I was proud that yet again I had done something that I hadn’t before I came here!! I think that’s another thing I will miss about being in Disney. Every single day I am here, I learn something or see something or do something that I never have before and I love it because it means every day is an adventure and a learning experience, which to me is priceless because it means I never ever get bored!
I spoke to my Dad today so that I could say Goodbye to him before he goes on holiday with his girlfriend am a bit sad because I have been away for three months and then he is away when he was going to come and pick me up!I was really excited to see him at the airport because he would have been the first person I saw when I got back to England. But I guess not. I’m not too worried though because apparently my Mum and her boyfriend and my little sisters are going to come, so the thought of seeing Emily and Nicola when I get back is more than enough to make me excited to get off the plane. I wish more than anything I could bring them here, that would be perfect!!!
I went to see Cirque Du Solait again last night and it was just as amazing as the first time.I love that show sooo much, I wish they had one in England so I could take my sisters because I know they would love it as much as I did, but never mind, I am determined to bring them here one day whether it kills me. So I will make sure I bring them to see it then! The best part about last night was spending time with Jen and Luke. I love those two to death and I like that we had a night out together before we leave because we’re all working pretty solid for the next week and Jens parents are down and so I just really wanna make sure I spend as much time with them as humanly possible because I am gonna miss them unbelievably when I go home. I wanna make the most of our last couple of days together!
So then…back to today.I got a lift home with Josh and his boyfriend Cody. I think the world of both those boys.They look out for me and they are so kind and caring. They are really genuine guys and they give me lost of cuddles which I love. Josh always dances with me and throws me around at work because he knows how and he makes my day when I work with him, I always look forward to work knowing that Josh is gonna be with me. Cody is such a great guy too. I met him for the first time a while ago when I went to go Mamma Mia and I haven’t stopped thinking he is a little gem ever since! He is such a sweetie and Josh and him always go on about how I should come back and stay with them and stuff. They are like part of my Florida Family and I will miss them more than I can even begin to explain.
Anyway, i should go now and get some sleep because i am back at work on the dock again tomorrow! Sweet dreams x
For Chris x
August 1st 2008:
So today I called into work sick because I was very hungover from last night’s escapades. However, it was worth it because I didn’t wanna go in with a headache and a ton of alcohol still sitting on my tummy. So I had a chill out morning,and I rang my Grandad because it was his birthday and it was really great to speak to him and see that he is doing ok.I miss him so much and I love him more than I could ever say,so hearing him so happy that I called for his birthday made my day a million times better.
That was until Chris came over in a panic because something really bad had happened and he needed to go home!! But his airline company wouldn’t change his flight and he didn’t have enough money and his mum was stuck at work so she couldn’t sort it and it was all drama. So I said I would lend him the extra money he needed and I just helped to chill him out. The worst part of all though was saying goodbye.
Now I decided that since today was my day to say goodbye so someone as amazing and genuine as this guy, I would dedicate this particular blog to him.
Chris and I met at the Yacht & Beach club about a month or so ago now. He was a new lifeguard training and (he doesn’t know this part but never mind) I was told that we got a hot new lifeguard and so I wanted to go check him out!!So I went over and said hello and sure enough he was a complete fitty. The snag however is that he had a boyfriend. But,it didn’t matter because that was the day I met one of the best people I will ever be blessed to meet. We started hanging out and he became like a brother to me. We would go out in the car and go shopping or for food or just hang out and have fun watching movies. But whatever we did, we had the best time ever. We sing along to songs in his car, he has an amazing voice and so talented its ridiculous and it pisses me off that he never gets told it enough but he should always know that he is such a bloody amazing person and I love him more than he will ever know. I cannot wait for him to come visit in England :D
This guy taught me a lot about myself and the person I wanna be and made me feel like it was ok to be whoever I wanted to be and I will never be able to thank him enough for that.He gave me confidence in myself and convinced me to buy jeans that fit :P He acted straight with me in Walmart and made the cashier believe we were engaged. And he made me realise that there are still people in the world that are pure angels. People who touch your life from the second you meet them and people who can restore faith in the good. He is one of them.And so,I am missing him already and can’t believe he is gone.But I know we will keep in touch and I know that if I ever need him he will always be there,just like I am always there for him if he needs me.
Chris,thank-you for being you.Never change and always believe.I know that sometimes you feel you aren't appreciated but i want you to know that i appreciate everything you do.You are such a special person and i wish you all the happiness you deserve in everything that you do.I hope every single day of your life is even half as special as you are to me.I love you mister x
Faith,trust and pixie dust ***
So today I called into work sick because I was very hungover from last night’s escapades. However, it was worth it because I didn’t wanna go in with a headache and a ton of alcohol still sitting on my tummy. So I had a chill out morning,and I rang my Grandad because it was his birthday and it was really great to speak to him and see that he is doing ok.I miss him so much and I love him more than I could ever say,so hearing him so happy that I called for his birthday made my day a million times better.
That was until Chris came over in a panic because something really bad had happened and he needed to go home!! But his airline company wouldn’t change his flight and he didn’t have enough money and his mum was stuck at work so she couldn’t sort it and it was all drama. So I said I would lend him the extra money he needed and I just helped to chill him out. The worst part of all though was saying goodbye.
Now I decided that since today was my day to say goodbye so someone as amazing and genuine as this guy, I would dedicate this particular blog to him.
Chris and I met at the Yacht & Beach club about a month or so ago now. He was a new lifeguard training and (he doesn’t know this part but never mind) I was told that we got a hot new lifeguard and so I wanted to go check him out!!So I went over and said hello and sure enough he was a complete fitty. The snag however is that he had a boyfriend. But,it didn’t matter because that was the day I met one of the best people I will ever be blessed to meet. We started hanging out and he became like a brother to me. We would go out in the car and go shopping or for food or just hang out and have fun watching movies. But whatever we did, we had the best time ever. We sing along to songs in his car, he has an amazing voice and so talented its ridiculous and it pisses me off that he never gets told it enough but he should always know that he is such a bloody amazing person and I love him more than he will ever know. I cannot wait for him to come visit in England :D
This guy taught me a lot about myself and the person I wanna be and made me feel like it was ok to be whoever I wanted to be and I will never be able to thank him enough for that.He gave me confidence in myself and convinced me to buy jeans that fit :P He acted straight with me in Walmart and made the cashier believe we were engaged. And he made me realise that there are still people in the world that are pure angels. People who touch your life from the second you meet them and people who can restore faith in the good. He is one of them.And so,I am missing him already and can’t believe he is gone.But I know we will keep in touch and I know that if I ever need him he will always be there,just like I am always there for him if he needs me.
Chris,thank-you for being you.Never change and always believe.I know that sometimes you feel you aren't appreciated but i want you to know that i appreciate everything you do.You are such a special person and i wish you all the happiness you deserve in everything that you do.I hope every single day of your life is even half as special as you are to me.I love you mister x
Faith,trust and pixie dust ***
Fun fun fun
31st July 2008:
Today was a day of work on the marina, which flew by!! We had a storm closing mid-morning for like two and a half hours so I went to sleep in the marina!! Then after work I came home and chilled out because I felt a bit sleepy. Then I slept for a little while and wrote a few e-mails that I have been meaning o send. After that I headed to Ale House with people from work because some of the girls are leaving, which made me sad because I like them and because it reminds me that I have to leave soon :(
It was so funny. I got drunk, for the first time properly since I have been here which was great. Me and a girl called Alex got started on the shots called Lemon Drops which taste like lemonade but they are vodka!I think ?! Well anyway whatever they were they were beautiful! So we had loads of them and then I tried a passion fruit margarita and got addicted to them!! So that was really great.I really do love the people I met here, I had such a great night laughing and giggling at daft things,it makes me smile that I have met such great people but it’s pretty bittersweet knowing I have to leave them soon L
Well I am too sleepy to write more so I am off to Bedford,night xxx
30th July 2008:
Well today was pretty good fun. I realised it was my last day off until I leave and so effectively my last day in Disney parks. So I decided that it had to be spent in Magic Kingdom. So me, Jen and Luke went and visited my favourite character in the whole world, Ariel!!I was sooo overexcited ot meet her and she was brilliant. Then I went to the ToonTown character spot and met Donald Duck who is now officially one of my favourite characters ever, he was the most fun. I was laughing my head off when I met him because he is on the front of my autograph book and so he was all flattered and was saying he loved me and then proposed to me on one knee in front of loads of people and I was going bright red and Jen and Luke were almost crying with laughter. It was so great because sometimes the characters just give you a hug and take your picture and you don’t really get that much interaction but this was so funny and really great because it not only made our meet and greet more memorable but it entertained the people waiting. It was such a fun meeting and it is probably one of the best I had so far.
I also went on Goofy’s Aeroplane ride, I’m not sure what it is called, but it’s a big kids ride and I loved it, it was over too soon though, Its like a mini coaster and you are swung around everywhere because its meant to seem like you are being driven by a plane Goofy made, which therefore can only mean it’s been done wrong. And then I did Splash Mountain which was hilarious because Luke didn’t really wanna go on it because he didn’t wanna get wet and when we were on it he got soaked two times worse than me and Jen which cracked us up completely. Luke was also incidentally wearing a pair of short shorts that make us laugh just because they are short and so combine their length with the skin tightness of them being wet and it results in me and Jen nearly falling over crying with the giggles.
We had a bit of an emotional day as well though because I think it hit me and Jen that the end is approaching because we all stood together and made a wish in Cinderella’s wishing well outside of the castle and then just stood and looked up at it for a minute. That castle has been a source of hope and ambition and dreams for so many people including myself and until you are stood underneath it like that, you never realise what a massive effect a building can have on someone. I think the moments I have spent in and around that castle have been the most memorable and will stay with me a lifetime.
We also stayed and watched Spectromagic, which I love so much and I found myself noticing more and more little details and appreciating it so much more, I guess that leaving approaching is making me really wanna recall every detail of everything so that I have it with me in times when I feel like I am loosing faith in what I believe in and what makes me happy. I sound like such a cheeseball sometimes but I think that this experience has opened my eyes to the power of peoples ambitions and dreams and has made me realise that anything is possible if you want it enough and you believe in your ability to do it. I guess the magic of Disney really has rubbed off on me and for any critics of Disney I can only hope that you one day will feel the excitement and butterflies and the true magic that this company and these parks can give someone. My dreams have come true here and I only hope that millions more people realise theirs too.
So once we had left Magic Kingdom, I came back home and got ready in literally five minutes and headed to Pulse (a gay bar) with some of my beloved gay guys for a night on the tiles. It was such a great night and it was soo funny because they all laughed when I got hit on by a guy.Only I could manage to get groped in a gaybar by a guy!!! It was so funny because they all were like, you should come because you can have a night off from boys trying to touch your bum, and then I end up having to be saved by them. Although I also had to be saved form a girl which was interesting to say the least! But I cannot complain because I had an awesome night dancing and being silly and just being able to love cheesy songs and enjoy not worrying about boys and my bottom!!!
Night x
29th July 2008:
Today was a fun day at work! We had a meeting at 8.0 am which I wasn’t looking forward to but when we got there I found out it was actually a recognition meeting and we got breakfast and sat and discussed the issues we had on gates, both good and bad.So that was productive.T hen I was on gates which incidentally was my last gates shift while I am here which made me kind of sad because the thought of leaving entered my head.By happy that I had no more gates cos it got really boring and depressing if it was not busy and slow!! So I am exicted for a week of fun fun fun now :D
Today was a day of work on the marina, which flew by!! We had a storm closing mid-morning for like two and a half hours so I went to sleep in the marina!! Then after work I came home and chilled out because I felt a bit sleepy. Then I slept for a little while and wrote a few e-mails that I have been meaning o send. After that I headed to Ale House with people from work because some of the girls are leaving, which made me sad because I like them and because it reminds me that I have to leave soon :(
It was so funny. I got drunk, for the first time properly since I have been here which was great. Me and a girl called Alex got started on the shots called Lemon Drops which taste like lemonade but they are vodka!I think ?! Well anyway whatever they were they were beautiful! So we had loads of them and then I tried a passion fruit margarita and got addicted to them!! So that was really great.I really do love the people I met here, I had such a great night laughing and giggling at daft things,it makes me smile that I have met such great people but it’s pretty bittersweet knowing I have to leave them soon L
Well I am too sleepy to write more so I am off to Bedford,night xxx
30th July 2008:
Well today was pretty good fun. I realised it was my last day off until I leave and so effectively my last day in Disney parks. So I decided that it had to be spent in Magic Kingdom. So me, Jen and Luke went and visited my favourite character in the whole world, Ariel!!I was sooo overexcited ot meet her and she was brilliant. Then I went to the ToonTown character spot and met Donald Duck who is now officially one of my favourite characters ever, he was the most fun. I was laughing my head off when I met him because he is on the front of my autograph book and so he was all flattered and was saying he loved me and then proposed to me on one knee in front of loads of people and I was going bright red and Jen and Luke were almost crying with laughter. It was so great because sometimes the characters just give you a hug and take your picture and you don’t really get that much interaction but this was so funny and really great because it not only made our meet and greet more memorable but it entertained the people waiting. It was such a fun meeting and it is probably one of the best I had so far.
I also went on Goofy’s Aeroplane ride, I’m not sure what it is called, but it’s a big kids ride and I loved it, it was over too soon though, Its like a mini coaster and you are swung around everywhere because its meant to seem like you are being driven by a plane Goofy made, which therefore can only mean it’s been done wrong. And then I did Splash Mountain which was hilarious because Luke didn’t really wanna go on it because he didn’t wanna get wet and when we were on it he got soaked two times worse than me and Jen which cracked us up completely. Luke was also incidentally wearing a pair of short shorts that make us laugh just because they are short and so combine their length with the skin tightness of them being wet and it results in me and Jen nearly falling over crying with the giggles.
We had a bit of an emotional day as well though because I think it hit me and Jen that the end is approaching because we all stood together and made a wish in Cinderella’s wishing well outside of the castle and then just stood and looked up at it for a minute. That castle has been a source of hope and ambition and dreams for so many people including myself and until you are stood underneath it like that, you never realise what a massive effect a building can have on someone. I think the moments I have spent in and around that castle have been the most memorable and will stay with me a lifetime.
We also stayed and watched Spectromagic, which I love so much and I found myself noticing more and more little details and appreciating it so much more, I guess that leaving approaching is making me really wanna recall every detail of everything so that I have it with me in times when I feel like I am loosing faith in what I believe in and what makes me happy. I sound like such a cheeseball sometimes but I think that this experience has opened my eyes to the power of peoples ambitions and dreams and has made me realise that anything is possible if you want it enough and you believe in your ability to do it. I guess the magic of Disney really has rubbed off on me and for any critics of Disney I can only hope that you one day will feel the excitement and butterflies and the true magic that this company and these parks can give someone. My dreams have come true here and I only hope that millions more people realise theirs too.
So once we had left Magic Kingdom, I came back home and got ready in literally five minutes and headed to Pulse (a gay bar) with some of my beloved gay guys for a night on the tiles. It was such a great night and it was soo funny because they all laughed when I got hit on by a guy.Only I could manage to get groped in a gaybar by a guy!!! It was so funny because they all were like, you should come because you can have a night off from boys trying to touch your bum, and then I end up having to be saved by them. Although I also had to be saved form a girl which was interesting to say the least! But I cannot complain because I had an awesome night dancing and being silly and just being able to love cheesy songs and enjoy not worrying about boys and my bottom!!!
Night x
29th July 2008:
Today was a fun day at work! We had a meeting at 8.0 am which I wasn’t looking forward to but when we got there I found out it was actually a recognition meeting and we got breakfast and sat and discussed the issues we had on gates, both good and bad.So that was productive.T hen I was on gates which incidentally was my last gates shift while I am here which made me kind of sad because the thought of leaving entered my head.By happy that I had no more gates cos it got really boring and depressing if it was not busy and slow!! So I am exicted for a week of fun fun fun now :D
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