May 25th 2008:
It is currently 1.18am on the morning that my Disney adventure is going to begin. I decided to keep a record of my time there on my laptop as well as writing in my journal so that I can type furiously or write peacefully and I will always have two ways of keeping track of everything that happens during my trip.Plus i think that e-mailing everyone would be so hard to fit in so you can keep track of all my mischief,excitement,tears,fears,happiness and achievements.
So here it goes...
I am feeling quite excited and nervous at the moment. I am so worried that I am going to forget something or that I am going to be all emotional saying goodbye or that I am going to be bored on the plane. I just don’t really know what to expect at the moment but I am really looking forward to the time when I am in a bed on the other side of the Atlantic and I know that all the stressful part is over!! That will make everything worth it. When I look back to months ago when I read that e-mail I guess I never thought I would be at this point. It seemed so far away and I had various interviews and money problems but now its all real and I am actually gonna be leaving for the airport in a few hours time.
I have butterflies in my stomach and I actually feel sick.
We had a little party tonight at my Aunty Ali’s to say goodbye and I thought I might get a bit emotional but luckily it was all ok. I just had a laugh with my family and I will treasure the giggles and the fun we had for the next three months whenever I feel sad or I miss them. E.g i will remember my Mum geting up and dancing "Soulja Boi" with all my cousins or my Aunty Kim showing us the dances she teaches in her old ladies classes or even my Nana Ross saying "Awww pissin ell!"When i tried to hug and smooch her goodbye,she likes to make me smile :) rather than cry!!
It is inevitable that there will be a point where I find it hard being away and I think because of moving to Liverpool (i moved for university there and its about 3 hours away from my home in Nottingham) and going through it all there I am much more mentally prepared for that. I packed a load of photos of everyone so that I can look at them and decorate my room with loads of family things to make me feel more at home.
Dad is gonna be here at about 5.15am to pick up me, Emily and Nicola (my sisters). They are coming to the airport with me to say goodbye which I am really pleased with because I think driving away from them would be harder here whereas being at the airport I think I am less likely to get all emotional over it. Although I have no doubt in my mind that I will find it really difficult to say goodbye to them knowing I would have spent so much time with them if I was at home, but I know they love and support me and that they want these opportunities for me as much as I want them myself. That’s what unconditional family love is. And I am really gonna miss them and feel so sorry to say goodbye to them when I go but I know in my heart it will all be ok and that I will have such an amazing time and that they are used to life without me around everyday now so it’s not so much of a shock for me being away for so long.
Well thats all for now..."Catch up wid'ya later" (She's The Man,Lindsey Lohan) xxx
It is currently 1.18am on the morning that my Disney adventure is going to begin. I decided to keep a record of my time there on my laptop as well as writing in my journal so that I can type furiously or write peacefully and I will always have two ways of keeping track of everything that happens during my trip.Plus i think that e-mailing everyone would be so hard to fit in so you can keep track of all my mischief,excitement,tears,fears,happiness and achievements.
So here it goes...
I am feeling quite excited and nervous at the moment. I am so worried that I am going to forget something or that I am going to be all emotional saying goodbye or that I am going to be bored on the plane. I just don’t really know what to expect at the moment but I am really looking forward to the time when I am in a bed on the other side of the Atlantic and I know that all the stressful part is over!! That will make everything worth it. When I look back to months ago when I read that e-mail I guess I never thought I would be at this point. It seemed so far away and I had various interviews and money problems but now its all real and I am actually gonna be leaving for the airport in a few hours time.
I have butterflies in my stomach and I actually feel sick.
We had a little party tonight at my Aunty Ali’s to say goodbye and I thought I might get a bit emotional but luckily it was all ok. I just had a laugh with my family and I will treasure the giggles and the fun we had for the next three months whenever I feel sad or I miss them. E.g i will remember my Mum geting up and dancing "Soulja Boi" with all my cousins or my Aunty Kim showing us the dances she teaches in her old ladies classes or even my Nana Ross saying "Awww pissin ell!"When i tried to hug and smooch her goodbye,she likes to make me smile :) rather than cry!!
It is inevitable that there will be a point where I find it hard being away and I think because of moving to Liverpool (i moved for university there and its about 3 hours away from my home in Nottingham) and going through it all there I am much more mentally prepared for that. I packed a load of photos of everyone so that I can look at them and decorate my room with loads of family things to make me feel more at home.
Dad is gonna be here at about 5.15am to pick up me, Emily and Nicola (my sisters). They are coming to the airport with me to say goodbye which I am really pleased with because I think driving away from them would be harder here whereas being at the airport I think I am less likely to get all emotional over it. Although I have no doubt in my mind that I will find it really difficult to say goodbye to them knowing I would have spent so much time with them if I was at home, but I know they love and support me and that they want these opportunities for me as much as I want them myself. That’s what unconditional family love is. And I am really gonna miss them and feel so sorry to say goodbye to them when I go but I know in my heart it will all be ok and that I will have such an amazing time and that they are used to life without me around everyday now so it’s not so much of a shock for me being away for so long.
Well thats all for now..."Catch up wid'ya later" (She's The Man,Lindsey Lohan) xxx
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